Over the water it bobbed, the yellow stone,
Never stopping, never sinking, floating,
Hiding itself against the rich blue
My eyes followed it searching the depths,
Over head the bird laughed, skating higher
With one last look at the warm friendly waves I turned away
Walking over the warm carpet of sand I went, away,
Wishing to once again find a magical stone
Spotting another spot if butter in the sand I felt a new high
As I moved towards it I felt myself floating
Reaching into the sand I dug deeper
But as I finally got it in my grasp the pebble became cold and blue.
I stared at the rock, wishing away the blue,
But it was still there. I could not will it away,
I felt myself drop the stone, sinking deeper
Turning back to the waves I threw myself in, becoming the stone
Forgetting everything, I bobbed and floated
Turning my face upward I watched the clouds smile from their height
Further and further my body danced away from the shore pulling me higher
From a distance I heard the horn you blew,
But nothing could pull me back from the calm of floating
I heard you call again but this time you were further away
I felt around searching for the yellow stone.
It was lost like you were now and the pain was deep.
I began to fight, reaching for everything I had in my depth
But I could not bring myself back from this new high.
It was all gone, even the stone
I looked around, nothing, all there was, blue
I had gone away,
I had lost my life float
I felt something wrap around me, you became my float
I was felt myself claimed by its once again enjoying the rich shade of blue
I felt you pull me back, away from the sea, away.
Reaching the shore I smiled and said the only word that was needed, “Hi”
And you took me in your arms giving me warmth, I felt it deep,
You reached out your hand and I saw it, the glittering gold of the stone.
You smiled back, I reached for the stone, I felt the joy float over me.
I looked one last time at the blue ocean, wondering at it’s depth.
The gulls made one more circle high and you took my hand leading me away.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
Family ties
In every book there are moments that stick with the reader moments that really capture the book and the heart of the reader and I think one of the most important ones for me was a scene the narrator wasn’t even in. It was the short chapter where Woody visit’s the ancestral home. It just felt so real and so identifiable at least to me. I can honestly say that I have felt nerves and uneasiness of go to meet a relative you have never met or haven’t seen in years and feared the response. As he packed up the sugar hopeful that it would grant him a better reception I was right there with him. And when the Aunt cried over his appearance, showing him the grave that had been made for his father as they all feared his death my heart broke along with them.
However the most powerful scene was when the aunt was watching him sleep. As she shed tears over him and family trait’s the power of family, their family became so clear. One can little doubt that Woody came back with a renewed sense of familial pride and understanding . How can not remember meeting that one relative who is old and wise and holds all the magical stories about your parents or grandparents that no one else knows. Or walking through the old halls of your parents high school trying to imagine your father in a letterman’s jacket. It is our history to be found the same way that it was Woody’s and glimpsing it gave me a better understanding of Woody, his father and the family Wakatsuki.
However the most powerful scene was when the aunt was watching him sleep. As she shed tears over him and family trait’s the power of family, their family became so clear. One can little doubt that Woody came back with a renewed sense of familial pride and understanding . How can not remember meeting that one relative who is old and wise and holds all the magical stories about your parents or grandparents that no one else knows. Or walking through the old halls of your parents high school trying to imagine your father in a letterman’s jacket. It is our history to be found the same way that it was Woody’s and glimpsing it gave me a better understanding of Woody, his father and the family Wakatsuki.
Unreliable childhood?
The truth can often be a subjective thing and that is never more clear than when you read memoirs. The style of writing is so attractive, and easy to read. Usually by the first or second chapter you are drawn in just like you would be with a novel. So inevitably the questions come with every memoir written after the James Frey debacle is it true? Did that really happen? How reliable is the author and therefore the narrator?
I thought of some of these questions when I was reading Farewell to Manzanar. Not because I thought that she was the James Frey of her time but because she was a child. Looking back most things in childhood are surrounded by a haze at least for me and yet she seems to remember things so clearly. Now that being said I am in no way doubting her or her story I just can’t help but wonder if anyone else picking up this book looked at it and thought about what they were doing at age 10 and if they could remember this much.
I guess the bottom line is whether she remembers every detail or not her voice is strong and her story is based in reality and that is what matters most. Knowing that we could go to the broken concrete in the desert jut as she and her family did. We too can see the rocks that lead to nowhere and the faucets sticking up like weeds out of the sand. And we can see the little girl she once was and the woman she becomes and we trust her. In the middle of all the uncertainty of memoir and childhood you trust her and her voice and you overcome any doubts about an unreliable narrator.
I thought of some of these questions when I was reading Farewell to Manzanar. Not because I thought that she was the James Frey of her time but because she was a child. Looking back most things in childhood are surrounded by a haze at least for me and yet she seems to remember things so clearly. Now that being said I am in no way doubting her or her story I just can’t help but wonder if anyone else picking up this book looked at it and thought about what they were doing at age 10 and if they could remember this much.
I guess the bottom line is whether she remembers every detail or not her voice is strong and her story is based in reality and that is what matters most. Knowing that we could go to the broken concrete in the desert jut as she and her family did. We too can see the rocks that lead to nowhere and the faucets sticking up like weeds out of the sand. And we can see the little girl she once was and the woman she becomes and we trust her. In the middle of all the uncertainty of memoir and childhood you trust her and her voice and you overcome any doubts about an unreliable narrator.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Fear
One theme that she uses in the book as kind of a underlying idea is how much the fear was two sided especially in the beginning.. I was so struck when she talked about her brother’s relief of them being moved to camps. The fear they had of being persecuted and attacked on the outside.
Of course that being said you have to wonder if he would have been so eager if he had known the conditions he would be thrown into but all the same maybe he would. People in general will on a whole in my opinion put up with a lot for protection. However at the same time they had to in some ways be just as fearful if not more so of the people they were putting their trust in.
Another time this comes to the forefront is in chapter ten in her shot aside about the reservoir shack. Her brother-in-law and his fellow workers when staring to the faces of the soldiers saw fear similar to what was in their own eyes. It really shows how the whole internment situation had more to do with fear and lack of understanding rather than any real danger.
Of course that being said you have to wonder if he would have been so eager if he had known the conditions he would be thrown into but all the same maybe he would. People in general will on a whole in my opinion put up with a lot for protection. However at the same time they had to in some ways be just as fearful if not more so of the people they were putting their trust in.
Another time this comes to the forefront is in chapter ten in her shot aside about the reservoir shack. Her brother-in-law and his fellow workers when staring to the faces of the soldiers saw fear similar to what was in their own eyes. It really shows how the whole internment situation had more to do with fear and lack of understanding rather than any real danger.
Privacy
Through this book in a lot of ways I am constantly amazed by the people’s in the camps ingenuity. They from the beginning take basically nothing and do the best they can with it. The scene I think that really first hit that home to me was the bathroom scene.
I mean she talks about the fact that it is basically a big room with toilets in the center no privacy, nothing just long lines of people forced to deal with it and do what they can to make it. The picture of the old woman lugging around a large cardboard partition is so striking. It really illustrates how far they went for just a modicum of privacy something everyone takes for granted. I mean the very idea of a little old lady lugging a huge piece of cardboard with her every time she went to the bathroom is inconceivable. I know even for a person my age it would be difficult and trying and to imagine a woman in her seventies doing it shows just how far they would go just for something so simple. I mean as she says the large cardboard is as big as the woman and to think she was doing that every time she had to use the latrine. I know as a woman I can’t imagine having to do it and I hope I would never have to.
I mean she talks about the fact that it is basically a big room with toilets in the center no privacy, nothing just long lines of people forced to deal with it and do what they can to make it. The picture of the old woman lugging around a large cardboard partition is so striking. It really illustrates how far they went for just a modicum of privacy something everyone takes for granted. I mean the very idea of a little old lady lugging a huge piece of cardboard with her every time she went to the bathroom is inconceivable. I know even for a person my age it would be difficult and trying and to imagine a woman in her seventies doing it shows just how far they would go just for something so simple. I mean as she says the large cardboard is as big as the woman and to think she was doing that every time she had to use the latrine. I know as a woman I can’t imagine having to do it and I hope I would never have to.
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